I made a big mistake thinking that I have crossed the finish line. Remember I wrote that there was no joy, no euphoria, no excitement. Well how truthfully has this been reflected in the last couples of days. My condition in the last 2 days has taken a turn for the worst. Eating is totally a nightmare. The pain in the throat is excruciating. Drinking is also a problem.Medication is not working.The opiate pain relief is making me vomit ( overdose of opium eh ehe). Talking is a torture. Man ...I am really down but not OUT.
Dr Kat dropped by the house yesterday and we discussed various strategies to tackle the problem. Most of the medication seems to be giving me more side effects problems than solving. And so we talked about hypnotherapy in pain management. I had been interested in this subject since the late sixties I had learned the art of self hypnosis many many years ago.So it was now a matter of getting the correct script to use this method to stablise the pain. He gave me some ideas,imagery and self talk script to try out. And so last night I embarked on this method of pain management. Even in my poor script and poor mental imagery I was able to transform and over come the pain and eating was a bit more successful. I am over buoyed with the result. Will keep you all posted with further results. Meanwhile thank you to everyone who called, emailed, SMS and what not. I appreciate all your thoughts and concerns. Now let me try hypnosis again and drink the next meal that is sitting on the meal table. Cheers to all.
Hang in there bro..hang in there. The throat will slowly regenerate its damaged mucosa , just give it time. In a blink of the eye you will be enjoying roti chanai with parpu and fish curry.I am certain of it.
ReplyDeleteI too was down and out for the last 2 days. It seems that after more than 50 cycles of chemo , my body is beginning to rebel against it.
I managed 1/2 day work today and have a full list of surgeries on Monday.Should not be a problem as I normally get OK by Monday.
Tried the hammock rope and it worked fine except that it started to rain after a short while and we had to take it apart.
Hypnosis is a good try. Anything that helps is worth a try.
So hang in there bro you will prevail in the end.
Yeah hanging in there ......just by a thread lah...
Deletesoon the thin thread wil become a thick rope and before you know it briyani, sambal and chillies will be part of your staple diet.
DeleteWill be in KL on the 12th April for my next cycle.
Hi Shakil. Mrs Kat from Melbourne.The worst IS over! Every new day is going to be better that today.Just sleep it out.Listen to soothing music even devotional. Practise the hypnotherapy and picture yourself well and having a good time doing something that u enjoy doing. just day dream away.Imagine you have won a 100 million dollar lottery.Let ur mind go wild with imagination.start planning what u will do with the money not just for urself but also for others.Maybe take us on a world cruise.See how ur time will fly.AND remember tomorrow will definately be better than today. Our thoughts are with u ,hang in there! Harbans
ReplyDeleteYour other half is a gem of a guy. Thanks.
DeleteGod is just testing you a little bit more, you have the strongest mental strength of anyone I know so I am sure you will get over this quickly. So fast it is already March, even quicker and it will be May and hopefully you would have recovered by then and at Raya in Aug be eating briyani already!
ReplyDeleteLove you paps!
Sure, I believe I will be having Nasi Briyani this Raya.
DeleteGood luck to your exams coming. I will make it thro night
love paps