The hill climb begins

              Today is the 16th FEB and I am 1/3 way into my tonsil cancer treatment. Just like the Tour De France, that race is won in the Pyrenees, and for me, this is my Pyrenees, the hill climb begins now. The battle to win or loose begins now. If I ever had to be strongest mentally, physically, spiritually or emotionally then this is the time to show it and endure the obstacles of this part the journey. The only difference between the TOUR and me, is my journey is alone with many by standers cheering me on.

I don't have a Peloton to give me inspiration and energy but I will never wish that for any one to accompany me on this journey. Cancer is a dreaded disease.
            As I had been told earlier by my oncologist, 3rd week onward is crucial to my well being. And today I am beginning to feel the strain of repeated radiation and 3 rounds of Chemo. So what actually is happening to me ? Well two folds. First its physical. My throat is sore and swelled from radiation and swallowing is difficult.Saliva is thick and irritating. Taste is gone ! I am entirely on a broth semi liquid diet.  Somehow shredded salad with cucumber and carrots go down very well. I guess the water in the salad makes my mouth lubricated and therefore chewing and swallowing manageable. Appetite is non existence.I have to eat to live! Secondly, its the tiredness that sets in 2 day after the chemo. The head is suffering from a hangover and there is nothing I can do about it. I do not take any supplements as I am afraid it will interfere with the chemo. I just have to let time pass by. Time heals every thing.

Sliced Salad

My Broth..... just a bowl

       2 days ago I successfully conducted my last CRM class for new SO and Capt. That was resounding success using the new modules that we rolled out this year. Of course the modules need a bit of tweaking to make the course content streamed lined. I will use the next couple of weeks to slowly work on this. Killing time is crucial and like the saying goes " an idle brain is the devil's workshop", negative thoughts slowly creep into the mind and plays havoc with oneself. I have to continually stay clear of negativity. One of the best ways I find is reading the encouraging word of wisdom from family, friends and colleagues.So keep it rolling in.
       My weight today is 86 kg, down 2 kgs from the last blog. At this rate I should reach my ideal BMI by next week. I might as well as look at the bright side of things !! Ha Ha. I will look more trim and fit at the end of my 7 weeks.